The Problem with Anxiety…

The problem with anxiety is that it creeps up on you. I have been feeling great. I just finished an amazing 4 month adventure overseas and during my time away my anxiety basically disappeared. With the exception of a few panicked moments, I felt so FREE and all of the old triggers (big crowds, airports, traffic) didn’t faze me. Yet, when I returned to the states, all those old issues came back to the surface.

In my case, driving makes me anxious, especially in traffic. I avoid freeways at all costs. Unfortunately, living in Orange County requires a car. You cannot walk to get to the grocery store or to your friend’s house. Sadly, this fear of driving, really affects all of my plans. One of the first things I wanted to do when I got home was to visit my best friend in Los Angeles. I had to keep canceling our plans at the last minute because the thought of driving through LA traffic left me sick to my stomach.

Since I first arrived home on February 3rd, I had planned a visit to my 90 year old Grandma’s house. I know that every time we see each other could be our last so making these trips is really important to me. Basically, I decided that no matter what I was going to make the 2 hour drive to see her.

I set out at the perfect time where there was the least traffic yet as soon as I got on the freeway I broke out in a cold sweat. I immediately called my mom and made her talk to me while I made my way to Palm Springs. I can’t begin to count how many times I thought about turning around and driving back home, but I didn’t. I prayed, I cried, and I drove. You see, the thought of missing a memory with my Grandma was more heartbreaking than driving through the discomfort of a panic attack.

I have good days and bad days. Just because I practice Yoga and Meditation doesn’t mean I am always calm. It’s the opposite. I have always had too much nervous energy and that is exactly what led me to explore the world of Yoga. I know that the people reading this who have never experienced a panic attack will find it hard to relate to. But, I also know that there are people out there who will read these words and wholeheartedly identify with them. This blog post is for those people. I FEEL you.

Comments

  1. We feel you back. I’m sorry you have to go through this. It can be exhausting.

    There is something I started doing and it helped me enormously. Whenever I feel any kind or level of anxiety I know that my solar plexus is out of whack, so I immediately do a 20 minute meditation and balance it. I even do it on a bench in the street if I have to. I plug my ear phones, close my eyes and play it, and right after it I’m just as good as new.

    The solar plexus when unbalanced is the source of all types of anxiety. When it comes to anxiety it is usually enlarged, and bigger than usual.

    The link to the meditation I do is as follows:

    I really hope it works.

    If you try and balance it every other day or every day your life will change, and later on you will only need to do it weekly or monthly.

    Also, an interesting and very helpful read would be :
    Eastern Bodies, Western Minds.

    I am aware that we are all different, and different things work for different people. I hope that what I shared with you today will match your frequency and helps.

    I want you to to drive to LA, also to your grandmother, while singing aloud in your car ! (Do let me know when you do).

    My heart goes out for you.
    I send you light, so much light, and love.

    1. Thank you so much for the meditation. I will definitely try it. And the book you suggested I read during yoga teacher training and I loved it. It resonated so deeply with me. Sending you all my Love and Light, Katie

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